Tuesday, June 3rd
I seem to be having trouble keeping track of days. Soon, I'll forget what month it is. And that'll be no good at all.
This is Charles the Bunny (from a while ago):
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Thursday, June 5th A couple of days ago, I was bored, and realizing that I had ZERO role-playing games installed on my spiffin' XP install, I went and found a moderately entertaining one which I've already played through, but it's been awhile. I installed Icewind Dale.
So, I play for a while that night, and it's pretty much how I remember it, go here, kill monster, loot tomb, etc.
Last night, I played for a long long time (until 2am), went to sleep, woke up & played more. Now, this is how I spent a whole summer a couple of years back. That's a lot of time I'll never have back to do something worthwhile with. And here I am, doing it again. I might have to uninstall the darned thing.
And yet, I don't resent spending a whole evening watching movies I've seen before (every now & again). Why is that? Games, especially the kind where you really have to focus, require more attention than movies. Admittedly, movies are an art form, so it could be considered art appreciation, but I'm pretty sure that's not it.
I think allowing the mind to wander, to get sidetracked, wind up somewhere else, is healthy. It's hard to gain anything out of an experience when you're constantly focused on tedious details (who needs to attack what monster, which spells are most useful, etc), and I can't connect any of that to anything meaningful. Movies, requiring less attention, allow me to think about how the characters or situations remind me of people I know, to critically analyze the movie, to think while I'm watching. I can't think when I'm playing computer games. So... there ya have it.
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Sunday, June 8th So, cool new thing on my other site, where you can explore the pictures and how they all fit together like a nice creepy jigsaw puzzle. Explore the art at explore.bobthewombat.com. You hover over parts of an image to get additional information, and you click to go places... so... check it out. It all makes sense, really. There are actually some new pictures which you (you not including every every one, just almost everyone) haven't seen before, because prints aren't available for them. Some will probably never be available as prints, but they fit into the scheme of things... so they belong. Check it out.
P.S. - is VERY image heavy. So, if you're on dial-up like me, grab some coffee while it loads...
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Thursday, June 12th I've only got one life. If I screw up, or chicken out, I don't get a second chance. So, I need to do it right the first time. Or failing that, make it a memorable failure. Make it worthwhile.
I'm not in it for the money. Money is only as good as the toys and/or safety it will buy me.
I'm not here because I have nowhere else to go. If I didn't like it here, I wouldn't stay. There's not enough life for it to be wasted like that.
I'm still here because I like it. Because there's still things to see, things to learn. I haven't seen everything here yet. I haven't seen enough to leave yet.
I'm still here because it's fun. Because of the days when everything goes wrong, and the triumph of succeeding against increased odds. And because of the days when everything goes right, and the reasons why things go right.
It's not about recognition. The value of other people recognizing failures and successes is dependent on whether or not they recognize the same values as I do, and that is not always the case. Recognition is only as good as the one recognizing.
To do something that's never been done before, to see a way when everyone says there isn't one, to head into the unknown and come out triumphant, is what it's about.
And to those of you who don't stop me from trying, and especially to those who help me ... I'm glad you exist, and I'm delighted that I know you. You mean more to me than I have words.
P.S. - There isn't any particular event that occurred today to cause me to post this, so don't bother asking. It's just me being reflective and wanting to say some things because ... I want them to be said.
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Tuesday, June 17th I know you're probably sick of seeing pictures of my cat. But I never get sick of posting them. So here ya go.
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Sunday, June 22nd It's been an unproductive week. I haven't been motivated to draw things, or post, or do anything that's really worth posting about.
So I play Icewind Dale. Yes, it's a waste of time. I've finished the game before, played many just like it, and it's not exactly stimulating. But, since that's what I've been doing, that's what I'm going to post about.
So I make a party, and I play. There's a plot... but it's not important. Most of the plot isn't really role-playing, there's only one way the conversation ends. You have to follow the main plot.
So... it's really a boring game. I've typed and deleted 3 paragraphs here, because I was bored while typing them. Don't ask me why I still play it. Escapism I guess.
Here's what I wish I had done with my day:Weeded my flowerbeds
Obtained additional links to my site
Deposited money in the bank
Drawn a birthday card for my sister
Drawn something ... anything
Gone bowling
Gone to see a movie
Finished some side (non-work-of-any-type) projects
I need to learn to think about how wasting my days feels. Before I waste them. Perhaps tomorrow I will.
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Monday, June 23rd Here's the list from yesterday, minus the one thing I've completed. Wouldn't it be cool if I posted this list every time I posted, so that you can see how productive/unproductive I've been? If you care either way, let me know. Otherwise I'll just do what I want.
Weed my flowerbeds
Obtain additional links to my site
Deposit money in the bank
Drawn a birthday card for my sisterDraw something ... anything
Go bowling
Go to see a movie
Finish some side (non-work-of-any-type) projects
I also changed all the past tense to present tense, because it makes more sense that way. Maybe tomorrow I'll post a picture.
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Thursday, June 26th I drew a cat in a window. In gimp. Entirely. Originally the intent was to keep the steps & do a 'how to draw a cat' thing. But then I overwrote the file that had all the steps in it. Oh well. So then I put the cat in space.
It's not really space. That's part of a Julia fractal - because GIMP lets you mess with fractals... Filters/Render/Fractal Explorer.
I did manage to get some stuff done the past couple of days. Some still needs to be done, and some is ongoing.
Here's the list...
Weed my flowerbedsObtain additional links to my site
Deposit money in the bank
Draw something ... anythingDraw something ... anything
Go bowlingGo to see a movie
Finish some side (non-work-of-any-type) projects
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This is Charles the Bunny (from a while ago):
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Thursday, June 5th A couple of days ago, I was bored, and realizing that I had ZERO role-playing games installed on my spiffin' XP install, I went and found a moderately entertaining one which I've already played through, but it's been awhile. I installed Icewind Dale.
So, I play for a while that night, and it's pretty much how I remember it, go here, kill monster, loot tomb, etc.
Last night, I played for a long long time (until 2am), went to sleep, woke up & played more. Now, this is how I spent a whole summer a couple of years back. That's a lot of time I'll never have back to do something worthwhile with. And here I am, doing it again. I might have to uninstall the darned thing.
And yet, I don't resent spending a whole evening watching movies I've seen before (every now & again). Why is that? Games, especially the kind where you really have to focus, require more attention than movies. Admittedly, movies are an art form, so it could be considered art appreciation, but I'm pretty sure that's not it.
I think allowing the mind to wander, to get sidetracked, wind up somewhere else, is healthy. It's hard to gain anything out of an experience when you're constantly focused on tedious details (who needs to attack what monster, which spells are most useful, etc), and I can't connect any of that to anything meaningful. Movies, requiring less attention, allow me to think about how the characters or situations remind me of people I know, to critically analyze the movie, to think while I'm watching. I can't think when I'm playing computer games. So... there ya have it.
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Sunday, June 8th So, cool new thing on my other site, where you can explore the pictures and how they all fit together like a nice creepy jigsaw puzzle. Explore the art at explore.bobthewombat.com. You hover over parts of an image to get additional information, and you click to go places... so... check it out. It all makes sense, really. There are actually some new pictures which you (you not including every every one, just almost everyone) haven't seen before, because prints aren't available for them. Some will probably never be available as prints, but they fit into the scheme of things... so they belong. Check it out.
P.S. - is VERY image heavy. So, if you're on dial-up like me, grab some coffee while it loads...
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Thursday, June 12th I've only got one life. If I screw up, or chicken out, I don't get a second chance. So, I need to do it right the first time. Or failing that, make it a memorable failure. Make it worthwhile.
I'm not in it for the money. Money is only as good as the toys and/or safety it will buy me.
I'm not here because I have nowhere else to go. If I didn't like it here, I wouldn't stay. There's not enough life for it to be wasted like that.
I'm still here because I like it. Because there's still things to see, things to learn. I haven't seen everything here yet. I haven't seen enough to leave yet.
I'm still here because it's fun. Because of the days when everything goes wrong, and the triumph of succeeding against increased odds. And because of the days when everything goes right, and the reasons why things go right.
It's not about recognition. The value of other people recognizing failures and successes is dependent on whether or not they recognize the same values as I do, and that is not always the case. Recognition is only as good as the one recognizing.
To do something that's never been done before, to see a way when everyone says there isn't one, to head into the unknown and come out triumphant, is what it's about.
And to those of you who don't stop me from trying, and especially to those who help me ... I'm glad you exist, and I'm delighted that I know you. You mean more to me than I have words.
P.S. - There isn't any particular event that occurred today to cause me to post this, so don't bother asking. It's just me being reflective and wanting to say some things because ... I want them to be said.
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Tuesday, June 17th I know you're probably sick of seeing pictures of my cat. But I never get sick of posting them. So here ya go.
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Sunday, June 22nd It's been an unproductive week. I haven't been motivated to draw things, or post, or do anything that's really worth posting about.
So I play Icewind Dale. Yes, it's a waste of time. I've finished the game before, played many just like it, and it's not exactly stimulating. But, since that's what I've been doing, that's what I'm going to post about.
So I make a party, and I play. There's a plot... but it's not important. Most of the plot isn't really role-playing, there's only one way the conversation ends. You have to follow the main plot.
So... it's really a boring game. I've typed and deleted 3 paragraphs here, because I was bored while typing them. Don't ask me why I still play it. Escapism I guess.
Here's what I wish I had done with my day:
I need to learn to think about how wasting my days feels. Before I waste them. Perhaps tomorrow I will.
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Monday, June 23rd Here's the list from yesterday, minus the one thing I've completed. Wouldn't it be cool if I posted this list every time I posted, so that you can see how productive/unproductive I've been? If you care either way, let me know. Otherwise I'll just do what I want.
I also changed all the past tense to present tense, because it makes more sense that way. Maybe tomorrow I'll post a picture.
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Thursday, June 26th I drew a cat in a window. In gimp. Entirely. Originally the intent was to keep the steps & do a 'how to draw a cat' thing. But then I overwrote the file that had all the steps in it. Oh well. So then I put the cat in space.
It's not really space. That's part of a Julia fractal - because GIMP lets you mess with fractals... Filters/Render/Fractal Explorer.
I did manage to get some stuff done the past couple of days. Some still needs to be done, and some is ongoing.
Here's the list...
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